Curiosity Might Have Saved the Cat

One of the things that could distract me in my afternoon break is listening to/overhearing radio djs giving wrong information about some news. whatever from politics music movies environmental and social issues. quite a number of times i hear them talking about stuff as if they know everything about it. but guess what they dont. some of them dont even seem to give a damn if they give the right information or details. it's like giving incorrect details out of a (admittedly) proper substance. seems like they did it just for the sake of talking for i understand that talking non-stop is their job. but please dont talk about things that you don't know or at least be curious enough to google it and make sure that you got the right info. otherwise it's dangerous. and is very irritating to some listeners' ears *sigh*

Higgledy Piggledy

Ikut-ikut Yoanna. Gambar babi gendut. I looooove piggies. I remember when i was in elementary, I was called miss piggy heheh. This drawing is inspired by one of the piggies in moi collection.




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Set Your Priorities Straight, Will ya?

Everything that you have now is made by past decisions. I know. And you can’t complain about every single thing that’s going on in your life because you’re the one who chose them to be that way. That’s true.

The thing is. I am not even complaining. I am just extremely bewildered by how severe I thought of myself as a multitasker. always want to take every single opportunity that’s been given to me for various reasons i.e. for redemption, trivial revelation, to make some money, to distract myself from thinking that I have the tendency of becoming a SINBAD (single.no.boyfriend.absolutely.desperate), to runaway from some place when it’s no longer felt like home, or simply because I wanted to do it/I think it would be enjoyable to do. Unfortunately, the latter only happened in few cases. Say, traveling and learning from other countries for free. I have had some good opportunities right. I acknowledge that. But the rest of the cases are not like that. More often I see myself trapped in situations where I really think I have too much, more than I could chew. Especially, when priority starts to take its toll. Sadly, I knew what my priorities are all along. No doubt about it. My top priority has been long long overdue. I don’t know if it was me who didn’t think enough before I took all those other opportunities. Never thought that they might endanger my top priority.

And that brings me to ask myself this question. How could my decisions endanger my priority? I’ve been thinking about it for quite a while and I think I knew the answer. I don’t think I have done enough thinking on what I was dragging myself into. There was never enough anticipation, meaning I didn’t take into account the fact that works always came along with all these crazy twists and turns, scope creeps, and stuff. And they have always been. Maybe I know that fact all along. And yet I did it again and again. Perhaps, I've been living in denial. Being overly optimistic that led into believing that I can have it all. I never really thought that 9 to 5 and the struggle to survive can be this time consuming and not to mention tiiring.

But I’m not sorry at all. I mean it’s really not helping to think that you made a mistake when you’re already trapped in the situation. Good God. Cooperate with yourself. At least knowing what your problems or what you’re feeling is a good start, no? Having said that, I start seeking for the solution which led me into one very conclusion: deal with it. How? Finish what you started. Bear in mind that if you decided to have it all, it means that you can no longer procrastinate, at all. Period. I mean I was never a champion procrastinator, but occasionally I am lured into doing some minor stuff such as reading novels, watching a talking box, shopping, hang out with my charolastras, etc. Am I even implying that to have it all means letting go of your hobbies? I don’t know. That’s tough. But there’s a price to pay right. Note that after I escaped from the dreadful nine to five, I can return to my priority. And score.

I wouldn’t even bother to write this post if it wasn’t because the *another opportunity I got yesterday. Three times ladies and gentlemen. Always believe that chances don’t come along every so often. But God is good. Three times. Have I wised up and decided to ditch it *again over my priority? Unfortunately, yes. Anticipate. Anticipate. Anticipate. I need to learn to bear the regrets of not taking those opportunities. Never endanger your priority unless you know that you can control everything *which wasn't the case most of the time.

I still hope that after I achieved my top priority, as Pras would call it, Project Graduation, *has to be very very sooon*, I could steal some time to breath and to travel to places I’ve been wanting to visit. Sounds like a plan. But who knows, maybe somewhere along the way, new opportunities come that I just don’t wanna miss out on. Amiin. I do hope so. And I will take them even if I’m likely to lose my time off. Doesn’t matter. At least we know that time off is never a priority, no?

Once again, I am not whining. I am just sharing. I’ve been through that *whining phase a long time ago and believe me it certainly has gotten me going nowhere. As Shinta said to me, you gotta stay positive Mit. And I still am. Worrying is less work than doing something to fix the worry. Everybody wants to save the world and be a hero. But nobody wants to help mum washing the dishes.

But please answer this, do we still have the slightest chance to win ‘em all? Do we?

More Sale Coming Up

What: Guess
When: 3 - 5 April 2007, 10 am - 9.30 pm
Where: Hotel Mulia Senayan

I myself am not planning to go. Sure, the prices will be freaking cheaper than the usual. Usually the sale is up to 70%. It's just that the last time I went there, I was rooting for this really cool jacket which still costs IDR 1,045,000 even after they cut down the price. Besides, I am officially broke :(